Friday 1 January 2016

It's been a long long time

First I must apologize. It's been over a year since my last blog post. And what's my excuse? I guess there are too many to mention. But as we have been reminded by parents/friends or even a spouse..someone out there has it worse than me. I certainly don't want to have excuse-itis either. So - I will chalk it up to 'life'. I have allowed my life circumstances to get in the way, again. AND I will have the lesson repeat itself until I learn to deal with it. So many times (especially with the new year here) I set a goal (resolution)  that I am going to control my calendar and well - it has been controlling me - for a very long time.

I am always on the go - my poor mother is very worried about me. She will call to ask how things are going and I ramble away at what needs to be done today or what I'm doing tomorrow. Her response is usually; Sherri, why not take a day and rest. Sometimes - I will listen to her advice. Usually; I'm rushing out the door.

It is hard to sit and relax. I have 5 children, 3 grandchildren, a hubby, 2 jobs, and - yes I'm crazy! I am starting another venture with a friend of mine, and my home/family to take care of. I honestly look around and see SO many things on the to-do list that I become paralysed and I don't accomplish what I want to get done. And I feel guilty I'm letting people down. Feeling like a failure.
I'm busy busy! accomplishing - well - to be perfectly honest... absolutely nothing!




Time is something we don't have total control of. Of course we have control of what we DO with time, but we can't control, stop or stall out time.
My dominate personality is choleric or assertive or competitive or a lion and the colour yellow- which ever system you use to determine what you are. Here's a link for a test to find out what your dominate personality is. I always feel the need to be in control. And the need to control time.
This year has been on the top of the list of being a difficult year (which continued from last year - the ball just kept rolling into this one!) It was difficult in many areas...emotionally, physically, mentally financially and sometimes I will admit; spiritually. And oh - to add to that with a little chuckle- the change of life is slowing creeping in! I cry over everything! 

So I guess I have a few conflicting statements...I want to control my calendar but I can't control time.
That's exactly right. I need to control my calendar because the clock ticks away every second with or without my approval. But if I can get really good at my calendar - I can actually control what goes on IN my calendar. Yes things will happen unexpectedly. But at this moment - if that were happen, I would be completely thrown off. I end up juggling everything in the air - sure to drop something! But if I have it on my calendar...I can move things around - even to the next day! At the end of the day - I'm satisfied with what I have accomplished!


I have quite a few goals for this year. And I need to control what I put in my calendar everyday so I can move toward achieving them. 

I also want to make time for the important people in my life....
at the top of the list - a deeper relationship with God - he needs to be my everything.
second on that list - my hubby - as my kids will come and go but he is my BFF
third on that list - my kids/grandkids - being there for them through the good, the bad and the ugly.
fourth on the list - myself. Making time for myself to enjoy my hobbies, (crocheting right now is my favourite), reading (oh how I miss my book time!) and taking care of my body, in every way - physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually! 
last but certainly not the least - my friends. I have a few close friends that it has been way too long. We all lead such full lives and of course - time marches on and the next thing we know - it's months since I've sat down and had a coffee with them!
Writing these priorities into my calendar will help me feel like I'm at least in control of my calendar and use my time wisely and feel satisfied with my time well spent.


The Passion Planner. This is an amazing tool! You can order online or download it!